寻根之旅
2025 年 6 月 9 日至 10 日，我在回中国期间，前往了父亲的老家——河南省商丘市柘城县。谨将此次行程加以整理，与弟兄姐妹分享。此分享分两个部分。
- 第一部分：春雨姐妹的信仰见证
- 第二部分：前往河南老家的寻根历程
春雨姐妹是此次行程中的司机。她放下手中的工作，专程开车载我们从洛阳前往柘城。在这一路的同行中，她坎坷的经历与生命的故事，给我们留下了深刻而宝贵的印象。
第一部分：春雨姐妹的信仰见证春雨姐妹的信仰见证
- 信主过程
春雨为什么会信耶稣呢？这件事要从她 13 岁左右说起。
她说：“我大概 10 岁左右的时候，父母离婚。那时，我和哥哥两个人住在出租屋里，母亲后来跟别人走了，家里就只剩下我和哥哥。后来父亲在大庆的一家钢铁厂找到工作，就把我和哥哥都接到了工厂那边生活。
刚开始，因为在工厂里没有房子，我们只能住在父亲的集体寝室。后来工厂建了一些 简易房，我们才搬过去住。但那些简易房里面没有厕所，如果要上厕所，就必须去外面的公共厕所。
那时候正好是青春期，我刚来月经，什么都不懂，也没有人教我、告诉我该怎么办。晚上去公厕的时候，被吓到了。从那以后，我开始睡不着觉。
慢慢地，我开始看到很多黑色的影子，也能看到一些别人看不到的东西。我心里非常害怕。但一开始，我父亲并没有觉得我有什么大问题，只是觉得我不睡觉，眼圈发青，又没有什么明显的病症，也不像精神出了问题。
后来我去理发店当学徒。可到了晚上睡觉的时候，情况越来越严重：我会看到拖鞋自己立起来走，看到窗帘自己慢慢拉上，又慢慢关起来。因为太害怕了，晚上睡觉时，我甚至在枕头底下放一把刀。
后来，我父亲意识到，我可能是受了很大的惊吓。那时候我们都不信耶稣，只以为我是 “招了什么东西”。于是父亲给我姑姑打电话，把我送到了大姑家。
我清楚地记得，那是冬天。我们几个人 睡在一张炕上（东北火炕：一种与灶台相连、靠烧火取暖的砖石炕台，冬天整铺发热，一家人常在同一张炕上生活和睡觉）。可是到了晚上，我 又看到了黑色的影子，戴着一顶帽子，在我头上晃来晃去。我非常非常害怕。
那时，我姑姑对我说了一句话，我到现在都记得。她说：
“孩子，你想得救吗？
如果你想得救，你就要相信有一位神，
祂会救你。那一位就是耶稣。”
那个时候，我真的太害怕了，不想再看到那个黑影。所以我很确定地对我姑姑说：
“我信。”
于是，我姑姑就带着我一起祷告。就在祷告的时候，那个黑影不见了。
那天晚上，我睡到半夜，忽然又坐了起来，因为我又看到它了。我立刻叫我姑姑，说：
“姑姑，她又来了。”
我姑姑就在我身边，对我说：
“你闭上眼睛祷告，不要睁开。你要宣告，你是基督徒，你是神的孩子。”
从那天开始，我就完全得释放了。我再也没有看到过那个黑影，也再也不害怕了。从此以后，我成了基督徒。
- 主的道路高过我们的道路
在春雨的生命中，有一件长期纠结、深刻影响她人生走向的事情，那就是她曾经渴望报考神学院、将来全职服侍神，却最终未能如愿。这件事，主是这样一步一步带领她走过来的。
- 未能进入神学院所带来的巨大打击
关于我不能够去服侍神、不能上神学这件事情，我软弱过很多年。我曾经放弃过自己，甚至埋怨神的不公平，不满意祂的安排，觉得上帝在针对我。有时候我会不断地问：为什么我所想要的都不能实现？为什么我不想要的事情却总是轮到我？
当时我和我表哥两个人一起考神学，他一次就考上了，而我却没有成功。那时我觉得自己已经非常努力：在教会服侍了那么多年，圣经读了那么多遍，甚至每周都站在讲台讲道，也在圣诗班忠心服侍，在事奉的路上一直很虔诚地追求主。可是在我看来，神却没有使用我。我心里反复问：为什么神不用我？这件事情对我的打击非常大。
- 由失望转向埋怨，与神关系的破裂
也是因为这件事情，我一气之下选择了结婚。之后很多年，我始终走不出来，内心充满对神的埋怨。我甚至不再祷告，不想理祂。我心里对神说：我那么爱你，我那么愿意为你付出所有，可是你为什么不能使用我？这对我来说不公平。那段时间，我真实地埋怨过、伤心过，也非常难过。
- 偏离在基督里的生活，选择属世的道路
也因为这件事情，我选择不再活在基督里，而是选择活在这个世界上，开始爱慕虚荣，爱慕这个世界，愿意去享受世界带给我的虚荣和满足。然而后来我才明白，所有这一切的苦难，其实都是我自己给自己造成的。
- 对“服侍神”的错误理解
当时我固执地认为：只有在教会里服侍，才算是真正的神的仆人；如果不能在教会服侍，就不是神的仆人。这完全是我自己的认定，而不是神的心意。事实上，神早已为我预备了一条很美好的道路，只是我自己不愿意去选择。
- 十字路口的选择与随之而来的痛苦
那就好像我站在人生的十字路口。当我站在十字路口的时候，我没有听神的话，而是选择了自己想要走的路。可是我所选择的这条路实在太艰难了，可以说是一步一个坎。我走的每一步，都好像踩在玻璃上，一边流着血一边往前走。可是在这样的过程中，我却反过来埋怨神：为什么要给我这样一条路？
直到后来走过来我才明白，这条路并不是神给我的，而是我自己选择的。正如圣经所说：“你种的是什么，收的也是什么。”
- 从误解神到认识自己的责任
很多时候，我们生命中的误区，都是自己给自己造成的。我们常常以为是神给了我们苦难，是神给了我们困难；但事实上，这并不是祂的作为。
祂是爱我的神，是我的天父爸爸。祂怎么可能故意给我安排重重的难关呢？这么多年，我一直以为是“神不用我”，才导致我后来生活环境中的种种苦难。但当我真正走过来以后才知道，路是我自己走的；在十字路口做出选择的，也是我自己，并不是神给我安排了那样的结局。
- 最终的醒悟与更新的认识
直到今天我才真正明白：其实每一个人都在服侍神，每一个人都是神的仆人，只不过我们承担着不同的角色，走在不同的位置上。
- 网红歌手
春雨是中国大陆在网上开直播的流行歌手。她是怎么成为歌手的呢？
春雨讲到：很多时候，我觉得这就像人们常说的一句话：上帝为你关了一扇门，祂一定会为你打开一扇窗。
在圣经里，主耶稣也说过：野地里的百合花不种也不收，神却给它极美的装饰；天空的飞鸟，神尚且养活，何况是祂的儿女（太6：26）。
在我和孩子的爸爸分开以后，我的生活一下子跌到了谷底。那时候我没有工作，也没有任何工作经验。因为怀孕以后，我就再也没有出去打过工。等到我们分开时，我还欠下了三十万的贷款——那是我们在北京做生意时投进去的钱。
孩子的爸爸认为，我没有能力养活孩子，也不能养活自己，更何况还背着这么多贷款。所以他很笃定，我走不出他的圈子，也离不开他。因此，他没有再给我任何经济上的支持。
那段时间，我没有房子，也没有家，什么都没有。我在哥哥家住了 两个月。后来，我只能出去打工，卖房子，找过很多种工作，但不管做什么，都赚不到足够的钱，既还不起每个月的贷款，也顾不上照顾孩子。
慢慢地，我觉得，我的人生好像已经走到头了。我甚至想过，银行的钱就不还了吧；
如果哪一天因为欠钱被警察抓进去，那就进监狱吧，谁让我自己选择了这条路。
就在这样的光景中，后来因为一个很偶然的机会，我接触到了 “全民 K 歌” 这样一个网络平台。我本来就很喜欢唱歌，而且以前在宝泉教会也曾在圣诗班服侍。当我知道，唱歌竟然可以赚钱的时候，我心里真的觉得：这是神为我打开的一扇窗。
从那以后，我开始在网络平台上唱歌。那段时间，我几乎是 一天 24 个小时，要唱 16 个小时。每天都非常累，可以说是用生命在赚钱。
起初，我很清楚地跟我的上帝说：
“只要能把贷款还上，每个月能供两个孩子上学，够我们生活就行了。”
神满足了我。
后来，我又开始想：
“如果能买一套房子就好了，几十万的房子就可以，只要够我们生活就行。”
神再次满足了我。
可是，我慢慢发现，我的心开始变得越来越贪婪。我想要的不再是几十万的房子，而是更好、更大的。所以，现在生活很累的原因，不是神没有给我，而是我选择的路，要自己去走。神给我的，一直都是足够用的。
再后来，我真的可以单单靠着唱歌来赚钱，甚至在各大平台，发行属于自己的歌。这一切，对我来说，都是一个真实发生的神迹。我一天可以唱 十几个小时、一百多首歌，可我的嗓子 从来没有哑过。哪怕今天再累，睡一觉，第二天依然还能唱那么多。
这是我的神，一位很爱我的神。
- 死里逃生
这些年，因为每天都要熬夜，时间久了，再加上年龄慢慢大了，身体也开始出现各种各样的毛病。
就在去年（2025年）五月份，有一天我连续工作了三十多个小时，中间没有休息，也没有睡觉。那天干了一整天的活，实在熬不住了，回到家里，家里只有我一个人，我一躺下就睡着了。我提前定了闹钟，因为晚上还要继续上班。
等我醒来的时候，意识是清醒的，可我发现自己完全动不了。我的头特别晕，那种晕是天旋地转的，连站都站不起来。我当时不知道发生了什么，只以为是睡得太久、起猛了，心里想着再等一会儿，缓一缓可能就好了。可是又过了一会儿，我发现自己依然只是意识清醒，四肢还是完全动不了。我甚至一睁开眼睛，就觉得天花板在转，胃里一阵一阵地翻腾，忍不住吐了好几次。
就在那个时候，我心里一下子慌了，突然意识到：坏了，我可能真的生病了。
我开始想：是不是脑袋出问题了？
大概又过了 两个小时左右，我才勉强拿起手机，想给家里人打电话。但我很清楚地知道，家里根本没有人，他们都在我哥哥家，就算现在赶回来，也至少需要 一个小时左右，也帮不了我什么。所以，我就直接拨打了 120。
救护车来了，直接把我送到医院。医生一看症状，就告诉我：
“有可能是脑出血。”
那一刻，我心里特别害怕。我害怕自己真的生病了，我害怕自己倒下了。更害怕：如果我倒下了，我的孩子怎么办？
我在心里向我的神祷告。那时候，我的意识一直很清醒。我闭着眼睛对医生说：
“你让我睡一觉就好了。”
可是医生还是坚持让我做脑 CT，做各种检查。因为当时已经是半夜，只能先办理住院。医生用我的手机，给我的家人——我妈妈和我哥哥打了电话。他们赶到医院的时候，我已经住进医院了。那段时间，我几乎不能睁开眼睛，一睁开眼睛就想吐。可当晚值班的医生，也没有一个人能准确地告诉我们到底是什么问题，只说要等到第二天早晨，主任医师来了，再继续检查。
慢慢地，我心里却变得 很平安。我知道，我的神一直都在。
我大概睡了几个小时。等我再睁开眼睛的时候，发现四肢已经可以动了。我的手可以攥拳头，也可以向上、向下活动。
后来医生过来看我，说需要我住院观察几天，但因为没有床位，只能安排在走廊。我就对医生说：
“没关系，我回家吧，回家休息几天。”
也就是在那个时候，我才真正意识到：生命是多么宝贵，活着是多么重要。神把生命给我，让我活在这个世界上，我是多么幸运。可是过去的我，从来没有真正感恩过，也从来没有觉得自己的生命有多重要，从来没有觉得它这么珍贵。从那一刻起，我心里很清楚地知道：活着，才是最重要的。在基督里活着，才是最重要的。
- 主是患难中的力量
春雨分享：我的人生虽然很艰难，但我为什么仍然甘心跟随主？我想说：因为神就是我的生命，是我活着的动力。不管我经历什么样的苦难，不管我身处什么样的环境，我都清楚地知道：祂是我的神。祂是我唯一可以抓得住的根源，是唯一能够让我活得有尊严、让我真正有生命的神。
既然如此，我怎么可能放下祂、不再跟随祂呢？虽然我承认，我信得并不好，但我的信仰从来没有动摇过。更重要的是，我不是只在头脑里认识神，我是亲身经历过神的同在，也亲身经历过神迹发生在我身上。
我一生中经历过两次严重的车祸。每一次，神都实实在在地保守了我的生命。
第一次车祸，我坐在一辆面包车里，车上坐了很多人，我坐在最里面。出车祸的时候，车翻了好几个圈。车上的人，脸上、身上都被碎玻璃划得伤痕累累。可当我从车里爬出来的时候，我连一块皮都没有破。
第二次车祸，我抱着我的儿子坐在车上，是孩子的爸爸开车。车同样 翻了好几圈，滚了下去。我坐在副驾驶的位置，那一刻我只来得及喊了一句：“神啊，求你救我！”结果，我和我的儿子 连一根毫毛都没有伤到。而孩子的爸爸，头上、身上都有好几处伤。
这不是巧合，这是神迹，这是恩典，这是 神对我的眷顾。
救我生命的神，我怎么可能不跟随祂？赐给我生命的神，我怎么可能忘记祂？在我人生最艰难的时候，是祂带我一步一步走出来，我怎么可能背弃祂？
神对我来说，和生命一样重要。祂是我 唯一的根源。所以，我的脚步只能站在基督里。不管你在什么样的环境中，不管你正在经历什么，祂是我的神，这一点永远都不会改变。（未完待续）
A Journey of Seeking Root
From June 9 to June 10, 2025, during my return trip to China, I traveled to my father’s hometown—Zhecheng County, Shangqiu City, Henan Province. I would like to organize and share this journey with my brothers and sisters. This sharing is divided into two parts:
- Part One: The Faith Testimony of Sister Chunyu;
- Part Two: The Journey of Seeking Roots in My Father’s Hometown in Henan.
Sister Chunyu was the driver for this trip. She set aside her own work and personally drove us from Luoyang to Zhecheng. During this journey together, her difficult life experiences and her story of faith left a deep and precious impression on us.
Part One: The Faith Testimony of Sister Chunyu
• How She Came to Believe in the Lord
Why did Sister Chunyu come to believe in Jesus? This story begins when she was about thirteen years old. She shared her own story as follows:
When I was around ten years old, my parents divorced. At that time, my older brother and I lived together in a rented place. Later, my mother left with someone else, and the household was left with just my brother and me. After that, my father found a job at a steel factory in Daqing, and he brought both my brother and me there to live.
At first, because there was no housing available at the factory, we could only stay in my father’s communal dormitory. Later, the factory built some simple housing, and we moved there. However, those simple houses did not have toilets. If we needed to use the restroom, we had to go to a public toilet outside.
At that time, I was right in puberty. I had just started menstruating, but I didn’t understand what was happening, and no one taught me or told me what to do. One night when I went to the public toilet, I was badly frightened. From that point on, I could no longer sleep.
Gradually, I began to see many black shadows, and I could see things that other people could not see. I was extremely afraid. But at first, my father did not think there was a serious problem. He only noticed that I could not sleep, that my eyes were dark from exhaustion, and that there were no obvious physical symptoms. It also did not seem like a mental illness.
Later, I went to work as an apprentice at a hair salon. But at night, when it came time to sleep, things became worse. I would see slippers stand up and walk by themselves. I would see the curtains slowly pull together and then slowly close. Because I was so afraid, I even put a knife under my pillow when I slept.
Eventually, my father realized that I might have been deeply traumatized. At that time, none of us believed in Jesus. We thought I had ‘encountered something unclean.’ So my father called my aunt and sent me to stay at my eldest aunt’s home.
I clearly remember that it was winter. Several of us slept together on one heated brick bed (a traditional northeastern heated kang, which is connected to a stove and warms the entire platform in winter; families often live and sleep together on it). But at night, I again saw a black shadow wearing a hat, moving back and forth above my head. I was terrified.
At that time, my aunt said something to me that I still remember to this day. She said:
‘My girl, do you want to be saved? If you want to be saved, you must believe that there is a God. He will save you. That One is Jesus.’
At that moment, I was truly terrified and did not want to see that black shadow anymore. So I answered my aunt very firmly:
‘I believe.’
Then my aunt prayed with me. While we were praying, the black shadow disappeared. That night, I slept until the middle of the night, when I suddenly sat up again because I saw it again. I immediately called out to my aunt and said:
‘Aunt, it’s back again.’
My aunt stayed beside me and said:
‘Close your eyes and pray. Do not open them. You must declare that you are a Christian, that you are a child of God.’
From that day on, I was completely set free. I never saw that black shadow again, and I was no longer afraid. From then on, I became a Christian.
• The Lord’s Ways Are Higher Than Our Ways
In Sister Chunyu’s life, there was a matter that caused long-term struggle and deeply influenced the direction of her life. She once longed to apply to seminary and to serve God full-time, but she was ultimately unable to do so. This is how the Lord gradually led her through that experience.
- The Great Blow of Not Entering Seminary
For many years, I was frustrated because I could not go to seminary and could not serve God in that way. I even gave up on myself. I complained about God’s unfairness and was dissatisfied with His arrangements, feeling that God was targeting me. I often asked: Why can’t the things I want ever be realized? Why do the things I don’t want always happen to me?
At that time, my cousin and I applied to seminary together. He was accepted on his first try, but I was not. I felt that I had already tried my best: I had served in the church for many years, read the Bible many times, preached from the pulpit every week, and faithfully served in the choir. I had always pursued the Lord earnestly in ministry. Yet in my eyes, God was not using me. I kept asking myself: Why is God not using me? This was a tremendous blow to me.
- From Disappointment to Complaint, and a Broken Relationship with God
Because of this, I got married in a moment of anger. For many years afterward, I could not move past it. My heart was filled with complaints against God. I even stopped praying and did not want to talk to Him. In my heart I said to God: I love You so much, and I am so willing to give everything for You. Why won’t You use me? This is not fair to me.
During that period, I truly complained, grieved, and felt deep sorrow.
- Drifting Away from Life in Christ and Choosing a Worldly Path
Because of this, I chose not to live in Christ anymore, but to live in the world instead. I began to love vanity and the things of this world, and I was willing to enjoy the vanity that the world could offer. Later, I came to realize that all of this suffering was something I had brought upon myself.”
- A Wrong Understanding of ‘Serving God’
At that time, I stubbornly believed that only serving in the church meant being a true servant of God, and that if one did not serve in the church, then one was not God’s servant. This was entirely my own assumption, not God’s will. In fact, God had already prepared a beautiful path for me, but I was unwilling to choose it.
- Choosing at the Crossroads and the Pain That Followed
It was like standing at a crossroads in life. When I was there, I did not listen to God but chose the path I wanted to take. That path was extremely difficult, with obstacles at every step. Every step felt like walking on broken glass, bleeding as I went forward. Yet in the midst of this, I turned around and complained to God: Why did You give me such a path?
Only later did I understand that this path was not given by God; it was my own choice. Just as Scripture says, ‘What you sow is what you will reap.’
- From Misunderstanding God to Recognizing Personal Responsibility
Many of the misunderstandings in our lives are caused by us. We often think that God has given us suffering and hardship, but in fact, that is not His doing.
He is the God who loves me; He is my heavenly Father. How could He deliberately arrange countless obstacles for me? For many years, I believed that it was because ‘God did not use me’ that my later life circumstances became so difficult. But after walking through it, I realized that the path was my own choice, and the decision at the crossroads was mine—not God’s arrangement.
- Final Awakening and Renewed Understanding
Today, I truly understand that everyone is serving God, and everyone is God’s servant. We simply take on different roles and stand in different positions.”
• An Internet Celebrity Singer
Sister Chunyu is a popular singer who livestreams online in mainland China. How did she become a singer? She shared that many times, this experience felt like a saying people often use: when God closes one door, He will surely open another window.
In the Bible, the Lord Jesus also said that the lilies of the field do not toil or spin, yet God clothes them with great beauty; and that God feeds the birds of the air—how much more will He care for His children (Matthew 6:26).
After I separated from my children’s father, my life suddenly fell to rock bottom. At that time, I had no job and no work experience. After becoming pregnant, I had never gone out to work again. By the time we separated, I was burdened with 300,000 yuan in debt—money we had invested while doing business in Beijing.
My child’s father believed that I had no ability to support either the children or myself, let alone repay such a large debt. He was convinced that I could not leave his control and could not survive without him. Therefore, he stopped providing me with any financial support.
During that period, I had no house, no home, and nothing at all. I stayed at my brother’s place for two months. Later, I had no choice but to go out and work, sell houses, and try many different jobs. But no matter what I did, I could not earn enough money to cover the monthly loan payments and care for my children.
Gradually, I felt as though my life had come to an end. I even thought: maybe I should just stop repaying the bank loans. If one day I am arrested because of the debt, then so be it—after all, I chose this path myself.
It was during this time that, through a very coincidental opportunity, I encountered an online platform called ‘全民K歌’ (Pinyin: “Quanmin K Ge,” meaning National K-Song). I had always loved singing, and I had previously served in the choir at Baoquan Church. When I realized that singing could actually earn money, I truly felt that this was a window God had opened for me.
From that point on, I began singing on online platforms. During that period, I almost sang 16 hours a day out of 24. I was extremely exhausted—truly earning money with my life.
At first, I clearly told my God:
‘As long as I can repay the loans, cover my two children’s schooling each month, and have enough for our basic living, that will be enough.’
God met that need.
Later, I began to think:
‘If only I could buy a small apartment—just a modest place worth a few hundred thousand yuan—that would be enough for us to live.’
God met that need as well.
But gradually, I discovered that my heart was becoming more and more greedy. What I wanted was no longer a small apartment, but something bigger and better. So the reason life feels so exhausting now is not because God has not provided, but because the path I chose is one I must walk myself. What God has given me has always been sufficient.
Later on, I was truly able to support myself solely through singing, and even released my own songs across various platforms. All of this has been a genuine miracle in my life. I can sing for more than ten hours a day, over a hundred songs, and my voice has never gone hoarse. No matter how tired I am, after one night of sleep, I can sing just as much the next day.
This is my God—a God who loves me deeply.
• Delivered from the Brink of Death
Over the years, because I often stayed up late every day, and as time passed and I grew older, my body began to develop various problems. Last year (May 2025), there was one day when I worked continuously for more than thirty hours without rest or sleep. After working all day, I could not endure it anymore and returned home. I was alone at home, and as soon as I lay down, I fell asleep. I had set an alarm in advance because I still needed to work again that night.
When I woke up, my consciousness was clear, but I realized that I could not move at all. My head was extremely dizzy—so dizzy that the world was spinning, and I could not even stand up. At first, I did not know what was happening and thought maybe I had slept too long or gotten up too quickly. I told myself to wait a bit and see if it would get better. But after some time, I realized that although my mind was clear, my limbs still could not move at all. As soon as I opened my eyes, the ceiling seemed to spin, my stomach churned, and I vomited repeatedly.
At that moment, panic suddenly set in. I realized that something was seriously wrong. I began to wonder: could there be something wrong with my brain?
After about two more hours, I finally managed to pick up my phone and wanted to call my family. But I clearly knew that no one was at home; they were all at my brother’s place. Even if they rushed back immediately, it would take at least an hour and they would not be able to help much. So I directly called emergency services (120).
When the ambulance arrived, they took me straight to the hospital. After seeing my symptoms, the doctor said:
‘It could be a cerebral hemorrhage.’
At that moment, I was extremely afraid. I was afraid that I was seriously ill. I was afraid that I might collapse. Even more, I was afraid that if I fell, what would happen to my children? In my heart, I prayed to my God. My consciousness remained very clear the whole time. I closed my eyes and said to the doctor:
‘Just let me sleep for a while and I’ll be fine.’
But the doctors still insisted on a brain CT scan and various tests. Because it was already late at night, I could only be admitted first. The doctors used my phone to call my family—my mother and my brother. By the time they arrived, I had already been hospitalized. During that period, I could hardly open my eyes; whenever I did, I felt nauseous. None of the doctors on duty that night could give a clear diagnosis. They only said that further examinations would be done the next morning when the chief physician arrived.
Gradually, my heart became very peaceful. I knew that my God was always there.
I slept for a few hours. When I opened my eyes again, I found that I could move my limbs. My hands could clench into fists and move up and down.
Later, the doctor came and said that I needed to stay in the hospital for observation for a few days. But because there were no available beds, I would have to stay in the hallway. I told the doctor:
‘That’s okay. I’ll go home and rest for a few days.’
It was at that moment that I truly realized how precious life is and how important it is to be alive. God gave me life and allowed me to live in this world—how blessed I am. In the past, I had never truly been grateful, nor had I realized how important and precious my life was. From that moment on, I knew very clearly: being alive is the most important thing. Living in Christ is the most important thing.
• The Lord Is Strength in Times of Trouble
Sister Chunyu shared:
‘My life has been very difficult, but why am I still willing to follow the Lord? Because God is my life; He is the driving force that keeps me alive. No matter what kind of suffering I experience or what environment I am in, I know clearly that He is my God. He is the only source I can hold on to—the only God who allows me to live with dignity and truly have life.
Since that is the case, how could I ever abandon Him and stop following Him? I admit that I have not believed well, but my faith has never wavered. More importantly, I do not only know God in my mind—I have personally experienced His presence and have personally witnessed miracles in my life.
I have experienced two serious car accidents in my life, and each time, God truly protected my life.
In the first accident, I was sitting in a van with many other people, seated in the innermost position. When the accident happened, the vehicle rolled over several times. The other passengers were covered with cuts from shattered glass on their faces and bodies. But when I crawled out of the vehicle, not even a single piece of skin was broken on me.
In the second accident, I was sitting in the car holding my son, with my children’s father driving. The car also rolled over several times and fell down an embankment. I was sitting in the front passenger seat, and in that moment, I could only cry out once: “God, please save me!” As a result, my son and I were not harmed in the slightest, while my children’s father suffered multiple injuries to his head and body.
This was not a coincidence. This was a miracle. This was grace. This was God’s care for me.
How could I not follow the God who saved my life? How could I forget the God who gave me life? When my life was at its most difficult, He led me out step by step. How could I ever betray Him?
God is as important to me as life itself. He is my only source. Therefore, my steps can only stand in Christ. No matter what kind of situation you are in or what you are going through, this will never change: He is my God. (To be continued)